what will you become?

hye i'm back and currently blogging from PTAR1, again *haha*

i was like beyond sleepy while making my presentation text so i ended up being in Pusat IT untuk berceloteh here and there. in fact, listening to radio does not help at all. i thought i'll be distracted by the sound which is practically zero centimetres far from my ears, but still i felt very-very sleepy.

by the way guys, did i said that i was in the library? at 830am? haha it's really impressive for a girl so called Nurazreen Roslan to be in the library, and for god sake, doing some beneficial activities and what the heck, it's 830 in the morning baby~!!

speaking of which, i am preparing for my presentation text as i would be presented it this very afternoon. i know i can speak without a text, not that i can speak like very fluent like some other people, but when it comes to the matter that i-will-be-speaking-in-front-of-people-who-absolutely-will-be-looking-at-me, i'm damn freakin' out~!! i'm a stage fright, by the way. i get nervous easily when being the center of attention. and that's what the presentation text for. before i'm being kabut, serabut and kalut in front, the text might helps me a little to ensure takde ayat yang berterabur sane sini nanti. *haha*

yesterday, my German's Reading and Comprehensive test went well. it's not like i'm pass with flying colors or whatever, but i'm quite satisfied with my performance on that particular subject. i realized that i will performed on subjects which are i really interested in, but will definitely doing sucks on subjects that i dont have a heart of. it's imbalance as husna always told me that i cannot be focusing on particular subject but hey, it's the nature of me.

only God knows how much i hate learning business, i keep nagging all the way about it, and see what happen. i almost repeating one business subject which is practically not my fault at all, but i come to the sense that 'mungkin Allah nak tunjuk sesuatu'.

and because of that, i try to less-nagging on business subjects. and in fact i love learning finance. haha no joke. but still i complained a little *it's much actually* about OPM and whatsoever. but not as much as i loath marketing, management and economy back then.

see how immature i was?

and while i was listening to JJ & Ean hitz.fm morning crew, they come up with the morning topic 'what fear you the most?'

1. one caller said that she's afraid being behind the wheel again after a traumatic accident.
2. and one guy said that he's afraid to come late.
3. and a girl *might be a student* fear with her becoming exam which is not just around the corner lagi dah but it is T.O.M.O.R.R.O.W.

i always imagining myself being the caller, telling them what my opinion is on the topic being discussed, and for today topic i actually dont know what i fear the most.

i mean instead of Allah s.w.t, death and things related to after-death life, you know what my biggest fear would be?

i'm afraid of what'll i become.