my internet connection was very good when i'm in no mood to surf the internet.
it's been a week since i didnt wrote anything here. a little bit of 'jiwa kacau' inside and i need more time to become like the old nurazreen i used to be. i know i'm not supposed to argue on this since it all comes from Allah s.w.t but there is a little riot deep down inside. i've been tested with so many dugaan since last year and i hope that 2009 might bring me a new hope. nah, it seems to be ok at the beginning and a few month later, it's not.
i dont doing any major sins for 22 years i live.
---> i did not take pills.
---> i did not drink.
---> i stay home at night like good girls do.
---> i did not bring boys home.
---> i did not smoke.
---> i never been clubbing.
and yet, still, Allah test me. again and again. and as a good Muslim i still hold on to what my friend have been told me before
"Allah bagi dugaan pada hamba-hambaNya yang Dia sayang"
and again, i take it as "Allah sayangkan saya"
the thing is, i'm not strong enough. i am fragile. it's hurt in the inside and i know i hurt others feelings too. but i dont have a choice. i have to hurt others feelings and it's not my intention to do so. in fact, i hurt more. if you see the happy me, it's not actually what you see. i choose to show what i want you to see.
apart of it, thanks Allah cuz i have bunches of friends who really care about me. i dont know what to do without you guys. thanks for everything. thanks to husna for the sms-thing and i know you are worried. sorry for makes you worry. now i love you more *haha*
and thanks to aida, fami, tajul, saufi and mizan for your concern. i appreciate all of you guys. thanks for everything.
and to kak amir for the offline message. thanks, kak amir =D
and to my other friend who i might forget to put your name here, thank you so much.
i know i have to wake up. start it all over again. be it my mistake or not, it's fate. God knows more. i need to accept this as fate. try to be positive.
YOU CAN DO IT, NURAZREEN~! MOVE ON GIRL~! IT'S NOT THE END OF THE WORLD~!
10 comments:
go go good gurl. semoga ko jadi anak yang solehah. amin...
stop show off ur hair...
hope u know d aurat's rules...
sorry n tq...
most welcome... and btw, is the anonymous here is saufi?
yep. anonymous is saufi.
oke..
sorry for the pis.
no more after this.
huhu~
wei, not all anonymous is saufi...i dont comment about my friends the way they look...that was an impostor...
unless about nyamok(gf famy), now that just not a pleasant sight to see.
that's d spirit..=D
chaiyok2..
anonymous: oke saufi, whoever is anonymous pun, just forget about that. kan senang kalau kau jadi saufi je. xde laa jd crisis identity.
nyamok?? haha no comment. xcukup dlm kete dibahaskan bab nyamok, dlaam blog aku pun kne tempias gak ke. haha~
ucena: thanx ucena =D
No internet coverage or any kind of connection problem is just a little and common dugaan, I believe not only u but everyone would've faced it.
what a sincere confession here,but remember if u commit a minor sins repeatedly also lead to a major sins.
not commit any major sins doesn't means u r a good person..i wasnt judging u.
thanks mano for the good advice. i really appreciate it. seems you like a good person to me.
it just i dont understand why people who are really bad than me never been punished. i dont know, sometimes i feel that the world is play unfair with me. it's just some thought where i know i shouldnt argue on this since it all comes from Allah. He knows the best kan.
anyhoo, thanx mano. i'm not accusing you of judging me or whatever it is called because everyone makes mistakes sometimes, kan??
p/s: and network connection is so not the dugaan that i'm trying to tell the readers about. i guess we're not that close because my friend knew about this. so mind to intro??
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