deep down inside.

i am done with menjaga hati or whatever it is called. i hardly understand human-what actually they want, what they need and what actually can make them satisfied. i always have my black and white but dealing with other people's wants and needs it is totally different. i totally have no idea about that. seriously. i don't know if they are going to like it or dislike it. i don't take small matters into account and i stacked them into folder known as "ignore it" folder. it just gives me headache and heartache(sakit hati), right??so,why bother??

but if other people take it serious, frankly speaking, i just bailed. it's not like i'm trying to escape,or declaring myself as coward, or scared but it is just that i don't want to be burdened by all the drama which is obviously obvious not important (from my point of view). and i also don't want to hurt my only heart with that little tiny-miny things.

i got a lot of things to do in my life. i'm hunting for a part-time job during the semester break and because of that i am not in the situation of taking care of people's heart like 24/7. i am trying to be nice and pleased you people as long as i can and surely i cannot pleased you like every second or every minute, but sometimes i did because i don't want to be mean. i appreciate people. i appreciate those people around me. my friends, my family, and probably you. you guys are the reason i still believe and live.

i always believed in the very popular quotes

"what goes
around comes
around".

it might be too good to be true, but i had witnessed a few.

i hope that explains everything, now.

we're good now, right? aren't we?

let it stay that way.

or else i better be on my own.

sorry.

*hope you wont read this*